Am I Taking Steps to What I Desire?

I haven't posted since right before Thanksgiving and I have been thinking a lot since then! Some interesting things happened with a job in Minnesota which ended up causing me to think about what I really want: where I want to end up and how I want to get there. I found this clip and I wanted to share it:

Do What You Desire

The Minnesota job may have been what I wanted in the end but did not have the steps that I wanted to take to get there. I felt uneasy, as did others about me taking that job. I backed off and felt really good about that decision.

I had a great opportunity over Thanksgiving to spend some quality time with my dear friend Franchesca. She got her  wisdom teeth taken out and needed some assistance. Zach, Natalie and I took turns taking care of her. On my last day, she was actually awake and we had some quality girl chat and I realized how much I missed having roommates and really just talking and listening. I haven't had that very much since I moved to SLC and it was a huge blessing. I learned a lot more aboout Franchesca's life and am even more thankful for her friendship. 


The Friday of Thanksgiving weekend I got more family time. We went to the Octoberfest, we went to the Cinafour Theater and saw our very own private showing of Brave and we went to Wingers for linner. It was a very fun day!



Our Private Showing of Brave

The next week I was able to catch up with some old friends, SaraJoy and Wendy. They are two ladies I had the joy of meeting in Belize! Raymon and I with those two went out to dinner and enjoyed an evening out. It was fun to catch up.  Later in the week Raymon and I went to lunch as well at Kneaders and shared a sandwich because we are awesome like that! I love walking downtown with people I love and trust, sharing a sandwich and talking about life. It is pleasant.

Thursday night I got to drive to Logan and enjoy the company of some of my favorite people (now I have a lot of favorite people...so don't get offended). But I went and chatted with Jared Burge, Trent Fawcett, and Chase Bowler. We talked and then ended up playing bang when Suzie B showed up and it was great fun. Whenever I am in Logan, my body is overcome with this power to stay up super late and I'm not sure where it comes from...but after playing bang, Chase and I went for a walk up to the USU campus and just talked more. It was a chilly night but beautiful.

Friday I had injections in my back. It was not fun, to say the least. The procedure itself was fine, I was not in pain and afterwards I was actually doing really well. I was walking and doing better than most patients. Then about an hour after, I started to go downhill. I was icing like they told me too. My family was going out to Chili's and I was starving so I went with but I was in so much pain. That night ended up being a very long one I couldn't sleep very well. When I woke up, I was feeling okay.





I went and had breakfast with Kayci and Preston which was very enjoyable. By the end of that visit I was in a little bit more pain than I wanted to be. I went home and laid down. We were suppose to be heading to Park City but I needed to drive myself. I took some meds and prayed to be okay.






My family got ready to go and I waited until I absolutely had to move. Sitting is pretty much the worst position to be in when you are having back pain-so the drive wasn't the greatest but I know it could have been worse.


Once we got there I took some more meds and laid down while the family got settled in. We ended up having an enjoyable evening going to the outlet stores, where I bought two little hats that I really like. Then we went to a mexican place in honor of Tyler's 20th birthday dinner. We went to a place called Loco Lizard. I drove home on Sunday night so that I could work again on Monday moring.

That next week left me in a lot...A LOT of pain! My back and neck hurt so much. I was on my knees praying to my Heavenly Father for relief and strength because I knew He was the only one that could give it to me. I am taking the steps I to what I desire. I am trying to study my scriptures more and pray more fervently because I want to be a good wife and great mother. I want to be an example to those around me of how to live close to their Savior and how to be happy. That is what I desire and although my health has been giving me issues and I don't know my career path and I don't know when I'll be getting married, I do know how to control my attitude and how to come closer to Savior.

I love this gospel and it takes small steps to come closer to what I desire. I will make it, one day, I will make it.